Monday, July 31, 2006
Today was another typical lousy school day i guess...still not used to bein back in school after camp n keep wishin dat camp have not ended so dat wont be bugged by the stupid school work n involvements...must rmb dat its a no-no to eat at the coffeeshop opposite the school!!food sux n got stomachache immediately after eatin n i meant IMMEDIATE!! haven even cross the road to go back to school already kena sia...bleah...
Softball open another match today but i cant play cuz got 3 softballers in the team already n could already anticipate paul n nigel complainin if i played so helped joan the onli other way i could to manage the team...but honestly the team is totally in no shape to play any match...with the players attitude n skills...sigh wad else is there to say...all i can say is i never want to play with such team ever again...rather not play den to go thru this crap sia...tried my best to tell them their roles n position but i guess some ppl either r too stuborn or too full of themselves or realli too stupid to get it in their heads...wadever ur game ur team...wadever...got owned of cuz by a score of 18-1 how pathetic...nvr in my whole life of playin softball have i ever been on the side of the losin team dat lost by so much...gosh if im back in the marist team days n we got this score...coach most prob will screw our ass with some trainin from hell n punnishment sia...everyone complainin to me after the match from players attitude to umpire unhappiness or came directed towards me...like wth...im already quite unhappy dat lost even without me participatin n yet still have to face this kind of shit...ppl like hoe an complainin...clement dont like me...bleah bleah wadever...like i should even care...let the rest do wad they want ba...since my personality also says im selfish by nature so be it den...those dat mean nothin to me can jus rot away with ur problems...I DONT GIVE A DAMN ok?!...
Sigh feelin down n bugged with a guilty conscience dat wadever i do i always end up screwin things up for others...joan's team lost n joan asked me to help...some help i was...nat gettin into trouble with dad cuz of wad her dad thinks n once again its thanks to me... =/ hows it possible dat sometimes i dun do anythin wrong n yet it still is...dis stinks...oh n detention twice in one week...
wicked....
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Played in the first round of softball open on tues b4 going for LTC camp...was asked to help out n play for joan's team cuz of lack of players but ended up her team has 5 softballers in it exceeding the rule of max 3 softballers in one team =.= well played a decent game i guess even though it was so screwed up dat the seniors arranged to play against us for the first match for a supposedly easy win...although joan's team made 6 major blunders n we screwed up a bit the score wasnt as trashing as i thought we ended up having 9-10( i think) all i know is we lost by a mere point...ah screamed n yelled like a maniac over the mistakes made but in the end dun seem to be helpin so sub myself out n let joan's other members played after hitting a homerun =) went to school next day with two fully packed bags for LTC camp without bringing any school stuff in the bags onli camp stuff!! :D
Day One:
Got to the camp site n got into groups n settled into different dorms was in hotel n group 7/ Gecko (i came up with the group name =D) my group was more quiet as compared to any groups i have been n among the other 8 groups in the camp but nevertheless they aint that bad overall though...got some personality profile thingy n i ended up being I-N-T-P ( nerd/ sucidial) type...ended up earning the nick of sucide boy after dat cuz of the profile thingy -.- went out of camp on the first day lol to buy snacks n ended up spendin 26 bucks plus alone on the snacks!! x.x climbed the wired fence to get out n when comin back in got scratched n got spoted by the teachers who later told us dat the other gate was unlocked -.-" (
walao feelin so stupid den sia so malu!!) watch a short version of rememeber the titans (
one of the best movie i have watched b4!!) den stayed up late in the night listenin to music n watchin 40 year old virgin on pang's player :)
Day Two (a.k.a BAD DAY)
The whole day i was being plauged by bad luck sia...super unlucky met with a few unlucky incidents dat happened on me...
1) Fell on my butt during the activities after my group asked me to jump the electric fence n didnt catch me -.-
2) Got bashed up by 7 guys during the mona lisa game thingy cuz the rule said could steal from other groups n cuz im holdin the cards guess why i was bashed? worse of all is ming wei stole from me one card n i was chasin him but instead of helpin me the rest of the groups robbed me n i ended up with onli one card left instead... got some nice blue blacks n bruises -.-
3) Some dope stole my packet of fruitella i left in my bunk -.- ( dont mess with my sweets!!)
4) Got hit by a stone dat was thrown by shar durin group discussion when she was tryin to pitch -.-
5) Got hit by stone again after runing into shelter after bein hit the first time n got hit by johan who was randomly kickin stones -.-
6) Bench fell on me durin dinner -.-
7) -cant rmbr but was sure there was one more-
Stayed up late again dis time with the nat,cherie,denise n sucide girl playin bridge which i learnt from them n the devil's advocate heard some interestin facts especially the one bout sucide gal which struck me as quite funny =P went to pak's bunk later n me,pak, kok swee n gay boy shared the bed tgt haha! oh n kok swee is a snorer the rest of us had to put on earphones n listen to music while we slept! :p
Day 3
Played water games which was quite fun my group ran n hid the flag bearer thus our flag was one of the few dry ones after the game while other groups flags were in some sorry state ( i managed to snap one after a nice throw of the water bomb =D ) perform a skit for bash night but one teacher have to coment on it makin us look bad n all =/ but still i like the skit n find it funny still muahaha although i had to go super nerd on stage n embarass myself by doin the shooting club thingy but had fun still!! there was some dancin thingy after everythin but after dancin for a while didnt find it dat fun as the first time i went though but continued till it ended...hmm suprisin though nat could realli dance! wicked i guess never thought the daughter of a pastor will be dat sort of type :D stayed up till like 5 am playing bridge with denise, boy boy ( forgot his name =X) n nat n was more or less drained b4 i hit the bed sleepin right away...
Day 4
Woke up 3 hours later feelin tired as usual n went through some discusion thingy n overall debriefin of the camp...ribbon givin ceremony after dat n got mine from my traininer tracy ( whom i swear looks like meryl!) bryan n another girl ( dunno how 2 spell the name) recieved theirs in front of all n it was quite an emotional thingy after hearing the story from the trainer bout the significance of it all...ribbon says:
who i am makes a difference ...durin the last moments of the camp eneded up remindin me of the previous rhya camps dat i have been to n ended up feelin emo as well...emo on the bus listenin to songs till reach school n went bubblin with nat b4 comin home to catch up on some sleep!!
now dat camp is over its back to school work n the massive pile of hw due:
1) 20 + readin logs
2) GP compre
3)Eom
4)Compliation of survey results
5) Lit log books for both great expecations n atwood
6)Econs presentation
7) history assignment
8)history tutorial
9) Econs yellow card ( i hope she forgets liao!)
10) written report
shits dunno how i am gonna be able to finnish all dis...
guess like its another sleepless night for me once again...
Monday, July 17, 2006
For all the years that i've known u baby
I cant firgure out the reason why lately
youve been actin so cold
(didnt you say)if there's a problem we should work it outso why you giving me the cold shoulder now
like you dont want to talk to me girl (tell me)
okay i know i was late again
i made you mad and dinners thrown (in the bin)
but why you making this thing drag on so long( i wanna know)
im sick and tired of this silly game
dont think im the only one here to blame
its not me who's been going round slammin doors
Thats when you turned and said to me I dont care babe who's right or wrongI just dont love you no moreRain outside my window pouring down
what now, youre gone, my fault, i'm sorry
feelin like a fool cos i let u down
now it's too late to turn it around
im sorry for the tears i made you cryi guess this time it really is goodbyeyou made it clear when you saidi just dont love you no morei know that ive made a few mistakes
but never thought things would turn out this way
doesn't make sense to me now that you're gone (I see it all so clearly)
me at the door with you in a state
giving my reasons but as you look awayI can see a tear roll down your faceThats when you turned and said to me
I dont care babe who's right or wrong
I just dont love you no moreRain outside my window pouring down
what now, youre gone, my fault, i'm sorry
feelin like a fool cos i let u down
now it's too late to turn it around
im sorry for the tears i made you cry
i guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
i just dont love you no moreThose simple words hit so hardthey turned my whole world upside downgirl you caught me completely off gaurdon that night you said to mei just dont love you no moreRain outside my window pouring down
what now, youre gone, my fault, i'm sorry
feelin like a fool cos i let u down
now it's too late to turn it around
im sorry for the tears i made you cry
i guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
i just dont love you no more
The song says it all...just listenin over n over again holdin the tear-stained lyrics as the memories returned... "i guess this time it really is goodbye....."
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Have to rob a bank soon arghh goin so broke...Gonna knockmyself out need more sleep....Must train harder to win the rest....Shall do my best to complete all my assignments...Will end up onli continue to daydream about all these.... =P
Jus wonderin wad kind of a person i realli am...diff ppl say diff stuff bout me n frankly i myself also dun even know myself for who i am...how wierd eh?the sayin goes dat
no one knows u like urself..but do i even know??Some ppl will know me for bein hot tempered n a bastard at times...some say im very dao to ppl...others say im quiet yet with some sayin im noisy...ppl even say im a gentleman!! haha interestin...but among all these which one is the real me??...shall ponder over this interesting question dat randomly pop up in my head on my way home from church..hmm...
YAY! learned to play table tennis today for the first time n wohoo won nat!! haha at least this time bala cant say anythin bout me losin to a gal again =P scored 2 goals today too!! first goal one person ran thru three of the guys n scored!! wahaha w00t!! second goal scored by teamates assist n shot it thru the keepers legs yay!! haha although nothin much compared to the rest of the ppl but feelin happier in the process of learnin soccer..slowly but surely =)
Hmmm the lil kids at church says im nice to bully =.=" ppl might ask me y i even let them do so but i guess its kinda of a consicence thingy dat made me do so...have done n said so many bad stuff all the time maybe it will be better to let others have a go at me once a while eh? n anyway since they r little kids wad real harm is there to let them have their ways n play along with them to make them happy ba...cant hurt...realised i enjoy those little terrors company too haha makes me realli smile n laugh at times...somethin dat has not come easily these days... =/
Thank god mum was too busy for parent teacher meetin hehe...managed to escape this time but lets hope dat conduct will be better from now on so i dun have to go thru the same torture of prayin for a miracle to happen on the next parent teacher meetin haha :P eldest sis injured her foot n came home cryin...looks bad...ouch...feel bad im still infront of the com instead of helpin her...well my mum will take care of dat ba hehe =P although
it could have been me though...Come to think of it now...is a relationship realli necessary??...how can one say that they have been thru once when the heart wasnt there?...
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Wad a messed up hectic week im havin this whole week...monday have hnf till 6, tues end at 4.10pm n have to go gym for hnf, wed softball trainin till 6, thurs got gp remedial n gym,fri got softball trainin,sat got pw n sunday church...waa...practically have no rest at all for the week...sigh...scrapin through lessons narrowly makin it for the assignements n presentations dat are due...just realised lol dat all the group im in r kinda screwed up...gp group me bala,kin peng...econs group me, kin peng, lionel...hitory presentation me, bala, kin peng, amellia...lol seems like all the group with me n kin peng n bala in it are gone case sia... =P n to think we group with talissa n shannon for lit assignment...the poor girls...i guess we r helpin the class to balance out by puttin the not so smart ppl with the smart n hardworkin one eh? =D
Got a new softball captain n vice captain kok swee n sadiq...hope those 2 will be of help to me especially when it comes to attendance haha help edit my attendance a lil if i skip too many trainin ;P gratz to nat n sharina for girls team cap n vice although nat didnt seem like shes uber happy or wad to be captain lol i guess she kinda knew it all along dat she was the one anyway...ended up playin soccer instead of softball durin trainin today cuz coach aint there due to right leg injury...realised how much difference there is in playin in a field n on the floor...n how painful the stupid blisters on my legs r
!*#$%^&* hope they faster heal back sia...tmr might be my 2.4km run arghh....not realli in the mood or prepared for it but if it is den good game ba...
Super tired...gonna leave my hw for another day again n hope i wont die tmr...sigh this have been the same routine for the past few days n lets hope i can break out of this stupid cycle soon eh?...
A changed person...A new personality...A different perception...A fresh start...All these im gonna need.....
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
They say love is blind...They say the breakin of a heart hurts more den the breakin of bones...They say a relationship is the end of a friendship....Hence formula for love = bein blind + heartbreak + end of a friendship....
but...love cannot be denied...no matter how screwed up the formula may be...
How things have changed so fast...in a blink of an eye all of the past is no longer there but replaced with the new...feelin down still for zidane n france after the mass retirement of the players n how they came so close to liftin the trohpy just to be denied by a group of lousy liars/actors/bastards sigh...dunno y this time was so affected but guess is cause of so many of the players leavin after this world cup kinda sadden me ba...bye bye figo,oliver khan n zidane the three players i will miss seein on the field...haiz..
Even in my life things change so fast...too fast for me i guess...the way of studing...frens dat i hang out with...feelings....interests....life is just too fast pace now....how i wish can take out a period of my time now for a nice long break to be free from everythin...wishin for quiet time of my own instead of the crazy life im leading now...dun even know where im headin towards these days...a direction...dats wad i need...somethin to work forward for dat is even worth workin for...the onli thing i find im wakin up for these days is to gym, go for softball trainin n improve on pitchin n battin n last but not least learn how 2 play soccer...the rest seems to be meaninless for me...frens,classmates,family even com games bleah have all kinda faded away from me...wad kind of life am i den livin for??
Sigh n luck these few days haven been good especially with the teachers...got caught today with half the class for skippin econs lecture which is serious super boring la...i dun even pay attention there anway so might as well take the time to do lit hw but yea i know it still breakin the rules blah blah blah...miss yup came up to the library n we tried to hide but she yell OUT infront of all n super embarrassin for all of us there...felts bad but wad was made worse was dat she told radi,meiling n sulaiman too dat she was dissapointed n supprised dat they skipped the lecture leaving me out even though we all are sittin at the same table... -.-" haiz...guess like shes givin up hope on me as well ba...the onli teacher i guess dat i haven got prob with is history left ba...wonder how long i can sustain b4 i go on a banlist of the teachers...sigh...n shit this sat is parent teacher meetin n my mum remembers...arghh....not gonna turn up on dat day n just hope for the best ba....
Life is kinda screwed up now...or was it all the time??
Monday, July 10, 2006
Waa first of all i must procalim this loudly!! AHH MISS YOUNG IS BIAS AGAINST ME!!! waa lao was late for school today (no suprise though overslept way big time after watching the saddenin finals where zidane who dunno wad was he thinkin played such a big part in france defeat ahh...so sad...didnt even bother to stay up to watch the italians lift the trophy bloody actors...arghh...they dun deserve to win...try for oscars next time instead of world cup ba!!!
Oops digressin from topic oh ya back to the biasness...AHHH its unfair its onli the second time i came to school late n i got told dat the next time i will get detention while my classmates like paul,kin peng even lionel all came so many times n never gotten anythin like dis lor...waa....but come to think of it i shouldnt even have came cuz i onli reached at break time n after break is chinese which i skipped leaving onli one period of history n gp... -.- sigh maybe i have slack too much n its high time for me to do something about it liao ba...if not gonna step on more teachers toes n aint gonna help much for promos at end of year....
Went to eat lunch in school with ben after miss poo n zhu yanling pangseh us la...nvm gentleman shall not hold it against them :D went to library to sleep for a while den saw bryan n emily doing econs project so went over to bug them for a while (in the process feeling guilty dat i haven done mine as well) till saw nat in the library using the com n went over to bug her instead haha...went gymin after heng wei arrived n met shina n her fren there too...was quite shock when shina told me she n aloy broke up...ahhh another saddenin end to a relationship...the poor guy just joined hnf too which was a shock to shina n a suprise to me...hmmm can it be dat he still haven place things behind him?...ahh wad a sad turn of event but interestin nevertheless shall pay more attention to those two O.O
Ah did chest n legs today n felt great today finally went back to doin flat bench after so long since the time i did flat bench n injured my shoulder...felt great at least managed to hit 60kg for at least 2 sets of 6...not any big shit but good enough for me for the present...did legs today after like how many months of non trainin them but surpisingly managed not bad n form was ok today ^^ cant wait to hit the weights tmr again...no pain no gain...
Oblivious to the pain...invisible to the eye...
Waa first of all i must procalim this loudly!! AHH MISS YOUNG IS BIAS AGAINST ME!!! waa lao was late for school today (no suprise though overslept way big time after watching the saddenin finals where zidane who dunno wad was he thinkin played such a big part in france defeat ahh...so sad...didnt even bother to stay up to watch the italians lift the trophy bloody actors...arghh...they dun deserve to win...try for oscars next time instead of world cup ba!!!
Oops digressin from topic oh ya back to the biasness...AHHH its unfair its onli the second time i came to school late n i got told dat the next time i will get detention while my classmates like paul,kin peng even lionel all came so many times n never gotten anythin like dis lor...waa....but come to think of it i shouldnt even have came cuz i onli reached at break time n after break is chinese which i skipped leaving onli one period of history n gp... -.- sigh maybe i have slack too much n its high time for me to do something about it liao ba...if not gonna step on more teachers toes n aint gonna help much for promos at end of year....
Went to eat lunch in school with ben after miss poo n zhu yanling pangseh us la...nvm gentleman shall not hold it against them :D went to library to sleep for a while den saw bryan n emily doing econs project so went over to bug them for a while (in the process feeling guilty dat i haven done mine as well) till saw nat in the library using the com n went over to bug her instead haha...went gymin after heng wei arrived n met shina n her fren there too...was quite shock when shina told me she n aloy broke up...ahhh another saddenin end to a relationship...the poor guy just joined hnf too which was a shock to shina n a suprise to me...hmmm can it be dat he still haven place things behind him?...ahh wad a sad turn of event but interestin nevertheless shall pay more attention to those two O.O
Ah did chest n legs today n felt great today finally went back to doin flat bench after so long since the time i did flat bench n injured my shoulder...felt great at least managed to hit 60kg for at least 2 sets of 6...not any big shit but good enough for me for the present...did legs today after like how many months of non trainin them but surpisingly managed not bad n form was ok too ^^ although in the process of my workout the stupid hnf senior made comments dat i should not do so heavy n so n so...blah blah blah...jeez i dont want to end up lookin like him y do u think im even trainin?...wad a dope...no pain no gain n when ppl pushin themselves during workout n u make this sort of comments....haiz...wad to say??...each to their own ba u train ur way i do mine n we shall see each other in a few months n compare eh? =P
Tired out after my short-long day lol n just watch bend it like beckham...ahh feelin sleepy now maybe shall try to do some work or head to bed soon...tmr is another day to hit the weights...lookin forward to it n hope for another good trainin =)
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Well dunno wad u r trying to show or prove but ur recent actions dat left me somehow baffled n thanks for ur accusations they realli do "help"...guess the person i knew back then is no longer there n replaced with someone who is startin to push the borderline of my boundaries....
I might seem easy for gals to bully but dat is cuz sometimes i find it realli pointless to argue or insist on small things...but congrats u r the first again...this itme in being dangerously close to pushin my limits....this is a warnin to all dun overstep some boundaries...after wad had happen im a changed person n i dun think im taking shit from anyone anymore so like it or beat it den...
Was on the back of the pickup on my way back from church just now n lookin up at the starless sky with the wind rushin against me all of a sudden recall a line from a song i heard long ago...
"the first cut is the deepest...." how true eh?!well the good thing dat came out throughout the week is well i didnt fail history even though i studied for one hour but not realli likin my results even though pass...well will strive to work hard next time n realli study n gonna learn how 2 master soccer still even though my elg now blistered till like x.x n tmr is nafa 2.4km...wicked....well lets hope for a mircale n a french victory in the world cup later den!! woo go france!! zidane last appearance in international all da best!!
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Ah first of all i have to state this clearly OMG talisa ur one super brain man!!! O.O!!! i cant believe it for the first time in my life i see a student practically getting full marks out of tests till teacher have to purposely find fault in them!! holy shit man the level of admiration towards u have went wayyyy up sia!! -bow to ur knowledge- thank god for havin u as my lit partner wohoo for once i wont screw up my assignment with the brain on my team =P ya ya i know i promise i wont slack n will do my part too ok...lookin forward to doing work finally....
Haha the irony of life is simply too much...thought i would have gotten the lowest in class again given my terrible record of 0/15 for my previous test -.- but suprisingly!!! i didnt n i got an improvement haha even though i went to toilet for like 10 mins durin the paper due to tummy ache n den slept for 30mins lol i got 10/50!! an extra 1 infront of the 0 this time haha!! =D i betted with paul b4 the paper dat i will get lower n i lost to him one packet of m&m but well as the sayin goes u cant win them all so its ok quite glad of my improvement...but arghh lost to kin peng who slept even earlier den me sia!! better start getting serious for my next paper i intend to do another big leap in improvement n pass it for once !_! now i have to think of a way how to break this news to my mum..hmmm @_@"
Woke up late today cuz stayed up to watch portugal math against france n i was quite disappointed dat france won by the penalty dat was like so....haiz...there goes another team dat i support out of the game....nvm...now im gonna root for france to win the cup dun let italy win!!!arghhh....bunch of divin team... =P ended up wakin at 8.30 n came to school at 10.30++ haha missed all the previous lessons n walked around lookin for my chinese class till finally found out that it was in the lt... -.- rest of the day went by borin as usual den after school went to makan with the class at east point but somehow im feelin akward with the ppl there...maybe cuz the normal ppl whom normally will hang with like bala aint there n also the fact that dont feel comfortable in the simei area anymore cuz of the u know wad incident...excused myself after the meal n left n i found myself going to cdc n went up there to take a look...wow the lounge got a new look with some new stuff dat looks not bad but sadly doubt i will realli be able to use it or even go there dat frequent anymore...time to move on with a new phase of my life i guess...went gym after dat n it was totally horrible...slacked for too many days n now everythin all screwed up again arghh...weight fell back like shit but nvm im gonna buck up startin from tmr n work back up if i need to...onli the hardworkin r rewarded =)
Well somehow start to view ppl differently after the seperation n lookin back now i do wonder n sometimes am amazed at myself...hmmm i guess sometimes things realli have to be looked from a third person view for a clear picture den 0_0 well lifes like dat...
P.s haha happy bday kin peng n "THANKS" for ksing me yesterday eh... =P n dont worri bout ur results too much nat...aim for promos n try for good progress award like me haha 150 bucks!! =P oh n max INTERESTING haircut haha but it got me thinkin of my future in 2 years time ahhh...will i look like dat???
Let tmr worry for itself n thus have less to worry about in the present =)
Monday, July 03, 2006
Went to visit nat's church on sunday...something new again this time...its diff from those dat i have previously went before (not that i have been to that much for the count) but still can tell dat the way things r ran r different from others...as far as i can make out (which i hope im not wrong) the church believe dat a person has to go through a second phase of reborn which is spiritually so that he/she may enter the kingdom of god n live happily after :) thus they stress on the importance of speaking in tounges n baptism so it seems...hmmm interestin concept there n for once i enter church sat down for one of the longest time in my whole life n listen to ppl talk without sleepin!!!!holy shit man dats amazin given the record dat i have never been able to do so especially since the day b4 i was watchin portugal vs england which although portuagal won im still a bit unhappy dat they have to do it after the 90 mins causing me to lose lots of points n after that the brazil france match which was utterly disappointing when i betted all on brazil n they lost...sigh..well nvm now dat brazil is out im throwin my lot for portuagal the team dat haven won the world cup to win in this time!! go for it w00t!! Speakin of soccer recently started learning how 2 play soccer from bala n the guys whenever i have the oppurtunity (maybe got bitten by the world cup fever) but i think its also cause just realised nat can play soccer quite well...in fact good enuff to own me...arghh.... x.x
Well some ppl might say im bein a sexist by making dat comment but for me i take it as a challenge to prove myself at least to try not to lose to gals...(we dun need miss poo with the men r useless remark constnaly hanging around) cant realli remember wad happened yesterday other den the fact that the day flew by n i was tired after dat again haha :D
Today is the day of tpjc panarama...hmmm didnt know y everyone made such a big fuss over it though...felt like its just a school concert right??...didnt buy tickets to go mainly cuz : 1) tickets at least 20 bucks n i have a feelin i will sleep so y will i throw 20 bucks away?? 2) raj is performin n his stage name of all names (bala) o.O kills wad little interest dat stills remain for the concert 3) i dun want to go n see ppl to upset myself n kill my mood so i guess dats y im one of the few tpjcians still at home now instead of at the concert but nvm its ok =) oh ya n btw accidentally rammed the ball into alvin's(at least i think thats his name) face while bala rammed the ball into hoe an during soccer just now...opps...
Heard dat its Kin Pengs bday tmr well happy bday dude may ur dreams n wishes of becoming tpjc captain/superstar come true =P time to go rest now body achin like nuts ever since tried playin soccer...well at least its a form of workout by running about!!!