Hmm haven been updating for ages n ages til the blog practically grew cobwebs n died out sia...decided dat maybe bloggin down things dat happen will help me remember better n help to be a better anti-depressant ba...since its been a long while so this post aint gonna be short warnin in case ppl r readin..but i try to shorten wadever there is to write ba...
First of all the biggest thingy i guess which most ppl knew about is that me n soh got together on firday the 13th but we r now NO longer together...i stress the NOT together part again...i guess there was major complications n happenings that resulted in wad happened but sometimes in life not everythin can be controlled by one dats wad i have learnt...most of the ppl around would have know already but to those who dont plz do not make the same association with me n her together again...sometimes u might not know how heartwrenchin a simple light comment made by u can cause...n plz do not keep makin me answer y we broke up...im gonna summarise it in this post so DUN ever come n ask me again...
Reasons:
1) I guess i wasnt sensitive enough to certain changes durin a certain period of time
2) One cannot force love upon the other when the other has feelins for another
3) Some ppl claim dat : my "addiction" to com games played a role?
4) Most importantly some things r just too good for lil old me to have n i should have known...
Hence, with this plz do not do not come up to me n joke about this incident...have a heart...as mine was already shattered...
However even though all this happened i have promised n will do my best for the both of us to still be able to maintain a platonic relationship ( finally i come to terms with the word) with each other...no one could realli be blamed for wad happened but if it realli had to den let the blame fall on me instead...do not blame the other party for wad happen for when it comes to love...there are no fixed rules n she did not do anything wrong...let bygones be bygones n who knows? the world might end up becomin a better place =)
I have been down, depressed n out for a while already...its time to pick myself up n continue with life after all the sayin goes that wad cant kill u will onli strengthen u even more so i will take this as another eventful encounter in life den...
To u soh : Im thankful for the happy times n moments we once had together n i wont forget them for a long long time to come...keep the memories if they can make u happy but forget them if they r not worthwhile ba... =/
After clearin up my "lovelife" its time to head on to other happenins...well one of the significant one was dat i have rejoin back tpjc softball team under the pressure of JASON UMBY n his persistant coaxing...puttin it frankly though the team did not realli serve to impress me with the standard they r havin but maybe its cuz im too used to marist style ba....dang missed the old team even though it may seem wierd comin from the guy who always skip trainin :P Nevertheless since i have already join might as well do my best for the team...got the urge to take up pitchin though...n im pleased that pitching have improved by quite a bit from last time but cant say the same for battin n throwin which is a far cry from the old times ahhh....lets pray on n hope for better improvements den...
School work sux man...the hols r endin tmr n im announcin that i have NOT done any singel thing yet...hmmm i think i might be dead =P haven even touch my books for monday's paper n maths is like bleah....god im gonna need a super miracle this time to do all i can from getting 0 again haha....got influence by the couch potato a.k.a natalie!!! ahh watchin tv now n just slackin the whole day!! =D
Ppl have been makin good comments about the class but somehow whether its gonna piss ppl off or not im gonna say dat i feel different about it...the feelin of class bondness is no longer there...its just held tgt by some weak threads n slowly weakenin in my opinion...the wicked fightin spirit of the old A05 is no longer there too...n my "dear" classmate has been sayin some stuff bout me n some..ok most of them r unhappy/pissed at my attitude towards them due to the prepartion for seasports carnival but i believed dat i didnt do anything wrong still...u guys were the one who wanted to win in the first place when we sign up n when i got my mind into it n got psyched up to win all of a sudden u guys changed ur mind...reasons for not trainin n arguements over trainin n its benfits start to pop up...well i have made up my mind dat i realli cant be bothered by wadever u guys r thinkin bout...i have been very passive n reasonably nice to the ppl around me but recent happenings changed this mindset...treat a guy how u would want to be treated n do not expect more...u guys do wad u want...i will train on my own...as long as my consicence is clear dat im not the weakest link dat drag the team down its ok with me...live n let go...the rest up to u guys to make or break den...
Dont care...done want to care....dont even feel bothered to...let the world continue its spinnin n me oblivious to it...