Bleah has been workin my ass off for the past few days...rushin here n there n still got school work to do...guilty consicence finally kicked in so decided to rush n do as much as i can for my part in the oral presentation thingy...though its most prob gonna take up most of my sleep tonight n leave me drain again for the third day in a row for lack of sleep but oh well might as well get it done n over with...aint goin school tmr shall stay home to rush it finnish n go for work den..
Work has been taxin n tirin but oh thanks nick-t for workin under ur mum gave me some experience with containers n cargo so kinda help on the first day...though it didnt help by the fact that went for HNF before dat n gymed leavin me with barely enough energy to complete the tasks...once again im reminded on how money is hard to get by but still find it hard to control my spendin as i jus blew off 120 bucks on my windbreaker =X
Though im physically tired these days n bein drained out i relish in these moments...moments where u r tired till the brain becomes numb n where all thoughts jus cease...the body becomes a machine n tool where worries no longer plague the brain...dunno where im headin towards now...all so messed up...i myself dun even know wad i realli want...
or to even dare to harbour hope...A lvl chinese is comin but haven prepared for it...shoots...gonna miss another softball trainin tmr once more due to work n most prob again on friday...sigh...sorri coach...promised i will train properly once i return...
Over the past few days had some good moments, bad moments, dubious moments, tired moments,adrelanine rushin moments, over all mixed moments...each moments leads to subsequent thoughts but buried them all by forcin myself not to think at all..."
thinking can hurt your chances...n i intend to last" an extract from handmaids tale...how ironic...
dun even know wad u want me to think now...MY BRAIN IS NUMB!!!