Long time haven updated my blog liao guess like i dun realli have time to do so nowadays sia...many things have happen...things that have big impact n small on me...my life seems to be changin...dat is one thing for sure...never had to go through so much within such a short period of time but well since it is commin i might as well face it head on...
Gymin now is so-so...haven realli made any big improvement or wad but i shall work hard for wad i want n train hard too...more n more ppl r startin to train liao...first it myren n felix who started the whole gyming thingy until i got caught up in it too...den wei hao came...den jaryl teo,den terrence n desmond lau even came today sia...guess like its catchin on...its good on one hand as wif more ppl to train there will be more trainin partners...but on the other hand facin tremendous pressure to do my best so that i wont lose out to them...after all i started two months liao so i should kinda be ahead n i still want to get better...friggin health is driving me nuts...first i had fever den now havin a prolong cough...tmd i want to quickly get well so dat i can be at my 100 percent sia...sigh...training n working hard den...
My so called "l**e life" as how ben they all will term it is not doing so well i guess...i never knew dat after every arguement n disagreements we had it was such an impact to u...im realli sorri for all the past mistakes i have made n if im given the chance to turn back time i will change it all for the better instead but sadly i cant...i can onli pray n wish dat u can still see the hope in us being together n let me have another chance for me to make up for my wrongs...let me be able to learn from my wrongs so dat i can be the best for u...i know i may not be better than other guys in one way or another...but let me at least try to be better...dun give up or the hope now or even stop for a break...when things stop the inertia will make it harder to get back on track again...i want u to know dat it is not true when u say i get angry at u or wad...the truth is whenever somethin goes wrong i blame myself n others for wad happen but i was never angry at u...whenever there was a period of silence its because im tryin to make sure dat the next time the same mistake wont happen again...dis u might not know or believe but its realli the truth....
My frens r telling me dat im a gonner in dis n stuffs like dat...but i refuse to give up now...i was never a quitter n never will be...things that i hold value to me r hard for me to let go...so when it comes to u being the most important thing of all...its needless to say dat unless i have given everythin i had n failed,i wont give up on us...all im askin for is u to hold on to the hope...dun give up...let me show u dat there will be a happy ending for us...let me relight ur hope n spirit...
I know dat although i may be willing n all on my side...these sort of things must be a two sided thingy...if after everythin u still think dat its realli so impossible for us den i hope u will make the end swift n fast for me even though i pray n hope against havin to go through it but i just need to know wad u want the future to be...its all in ur hand now n i can onli hope against hope...wish against all...
Things were never meant to be this way, I never thought there will be this day... When i have to be caught up like dis... But as long as there is hope left i will go for it... Other wise just break my heart once n for all... Dun leave me dangling there confused n hurt... Wadever it is u know how much i still love u n hope dat there will be a chance for us...