Ahh tmr is the chinese o lvl oral for me sia...hopefully can do well in it n secure better results for my chinese...need an A1 for chinese real bad...aiya its the time of the month again to fork out $$ for supplement once more...alamak...gonna take gold from my mum first hopefully she wont blow up another fuss or wad...how i wish i was born rich instead of wad i am now...lots of restriction bein poor like me sia...envy those who got money but although the sayin money isnt everything...money is just MOST of everything...
Watched back to the future rerun on tv again just now...somehow it brings back memory of the past few months...watching the flashbacks in my mind brings about mixed feelings...many things that i never thought would happen happened to me...i still rememeber dat last time when everything was new i would have differant feelings whenever i was about to call u...used to be last time call u just to make arrangement for outings or wad den kinda end up talkin bout other stuff n chattin instead...last time it wasnt just me makin the calls but sometimes it would come as a pleasant surprise hearin u call...nowadays its most of the time just one side though...i could still remember dat in the past used to recieve many msgs in just one day alone n always looked forward to those msgs cuz it does gives the feelin of being special or just the simple thought that someone would be bothered to even take out a lil bit of time n spent it on me...somehow dat feelin is pleasant n dun realli know how to elaborate much on dat other than that...although it changed now...i know dat everything cant always remain the same as the past but sometimes looking at the past i sometimes long for those times dat are gone n hardly being able to replace again...gotten closer from the past but after watching back to the future somehwo made me think dat its not that bad if im given the chance to go back once a while to the past so i could enjoy thsoe times den...wont it be just wonderful?? *sighs wishful thinking*
Used to think dat i would never seriously fall for a girl or wad but....i was still havin this concept of girls being half humans in the past n there has been some changes to my way of thinking already...although sometimes the behaviour of girls still leave me bewildered n confused at times...love maybe is a perception dat is differant n may vary from differant ppl but still....dont realli know wad to say bout it...dun realli believe in gods n stuffs like dat but used it as a figure of speech...
If the whole world dont know n understand wad i feel den at least let the one understand...But if the one cant understand or relate to it den i guess there is still god to know how i feel...