Ahhh haven updated my blog for quite some time liao...guess i finally got down to doing it...life has been ups n downs for me since the last entry...experienced the pits n yet still somehow managed to salvage some lil bit of happiness here n there...but those lil happiness i just realised came from trainin...other than that i realised dat i haven been able to enjoy happiness in any other stuffs...jeez wad a sad life i lead onli can turn to gyming for enjoyment...but heck nvm den after all i do enjoy building muscles now more than ever...can say there seem to be some lil improvement in being able to do more now in the gym but sigh want to see more reults sia...shall continue to work hard den...no time to slack now...wad makes me quite glad was that i got my supplement at the warehouse sale on saturday for 70% off!!!OMG!!!dats a lot for a poor dope like me sia...the orginal price of it was 126.90 but after did count become 38+!!!waa was damn happy somemore got 55servings wif each serving 25g of protein!!dats close to double of my last supplement no wonder the orginal price was also like double of my last one =D wei hao has kinda of like become my new training partner now dat willy dunno god knows train until where n when...eh willy if u want us to train u must like give us ur number or something so dat we can contact u where n when we train ma...dun say we never try to help out hor...ask u to train a lot of times wif us but u want to do it alone...well up to u den dats all i can say...
Other than gyming the happy side...things aint going so well for the rest of my lil life...not sure if im reading wad signs that keep being shown correctly...if it is really dat way dat u think of it den im realli sorry n sad dat u want it to be dat way den...the saying about wad the right guy for u wont make u cry or something...but i did made u cry before n u bring it up quite often...r u trying to say something bout it??sigh dunno in a very disturbed mood...didnt realised dat gals can be like....better not say... = looking at felix n myren situation sometimes get me angry,disturbed,depressed n worried...y must dis sort of things happen...i have always thought that if a guy like a gal n a gal like back the guy,it will be naturally right for them to get together...somehow everyone is like telling me im wrong...am i really wrong bout dat conception or r they wrong??very confused...im trying my best to do all i can again but when signs like dis are being shown at me i dunno wad to do...some from the person i like while others i watch ppl i know go through their own problems...wad am i suppose to do for things to be right??
My birthday is coming soon...sigh...another reminder that im getting old n dat o level is at the corner...somehow not really looking forward to my birthday dis month...its like when im already feeling very screwed up now in my life how can i go n enjoy my birthday??onli good thing was my mum gave me an early present by giving me thirty bucks to go buy my supplement which is very surprising for she dun encourage me to train but yet she somehow understand a lil dat training is something i enjoy although i often come home with aches n pains but i still like wad im doing...dis makes me glad dat at least my mum aint totally bad n still support me a lil here n there although i know we are not rich or wad but she still manages to gives me the lil finanicial support to allow me to pursue wad i want...this is another thing that at least maks things better for me...support from others. so i know dat they really care n not just pretending to do so like some other ppls dat i know of...
Relationships wif my frens seem to have changed...just because i start going to the gym n tend to hang out a lil more wif those who also go to the gym frens like kinda of stray away n each went their own way...i rememeber the old times when i hang out wif the differant groups of frens doing differant stuffs n having lots of fun...well things have changed n i guess we each take our own differant paths now...each wif differant intrests n veiws thus leading to wad it is today...cant say i dun miss the old times but i cant help it since life is like dat...i guess i can onli just live on wif it...
Quite sad come to think of it...being burden down by differant problems everyday...wif differant worries n thoughts...the reason for all these r due to the actions done by others that induce these thinking n thoughts...how many will understand the feeling of mixed emotions everydat? to feel happy n worried at the same time...to feel pain but still live on wif it...to have so many things going through ur life dat others who dunno wont know how u feel or how its like...to feel insecure but yet to keep on hoping...such is the way of my life n its just the way it is...i look forward to the aches n fatigue dat comes at the end of the day so i can sleep easily without having to think so much cause when a person is tired n lies on the bed...sleep comes easily....