The whole word is F**k up man..exams have just ended but chinese o levels is like two weeks n approaching..everyone i know is getting selfish n more self centered...wad is going on or issit just me??Brother n sis are pissing me off like mad...ask dem to lend or do something is like asking them to jump into hell or something...f**k them den...next time they want something from me or ask for my help they can jolly well lie on the floor n just die or something cause i WONT help noone anymore...being a good guy always makes u end up last...doing things for others never get u nowhere nowadays but trouble..im sick of dis crap ass routine...who cares anymore??
Used to think dat all is fine n i had already done all i could so should have at least a lil results...but hey wad do i know im wrong again n nothing i ever done is ever good enough..always getting compared to everyone else in the world for dis n dat...cant they all see dat no one is perfect??The onli perfect person i know is paul...n dats cause he is a perfect fool...other than dat no one is perfect yet everyone expects something out of u...dey might not say it out but somethings do not have to depend of verbal communication to say so...
Screwed up my entire prelim one...fuck care bout it...wad else can i do its already over...went to gym today n damn it for the first time ever i went there n could not even concentrate properly n do finnish my sets...did less than half way then gave up doing anything n just stop...cant do properly when mind is preocupied n body is physically tired...felix say i would have broke my legs if i didnt do the hex squats properly n luckily i didnt break them...sigh wad a horrible day wif horrible thoughts running about through my mind...
They say trust cannot be given unless its earned...how can i trust a person den unless its earned den??No point in just believeing in words anymore nowadays...realli...things are changing so much so dat when ppl say words to u how many times have it all turned out to be lies??Lies and deciet can hurt a person but how many ppl know how its realli done??
Spent a lot of time on my way home today on the bus just thinking n i mean realli serious thinking..ignorance can be bliss sometimes n dis are times where i wish it applies...ppl always ask for the truths but wad they realli seek is to hear wad they want to hear but not wad is the truth...they onli say they want to hear the truth cause it onli makes things sound nicer...den y do dey even want to bother wif it in the first place???
Physcially-->lousy
Mentally-->weak
Emotionally-->confused
Life-->sucks!!