This is highly unregular but hack decide to post again today...dun want to add on to my previous post cause it will just make it seems wierd...still hoping that there is a way for me to train an achieve a faster result way way faster...like no result other than the increase in weight after like one month of training...sianz...have decided to increase biceps n triceps intensity tml when train...better to pain for a short while n get the results den to train for a very very long time n see nothing...still feeling a bit ticked off from the saying dat im weak n wont grow anymore...dats some bloody crap dat i hate hate to hear...im gonna do it n prove to those assclowns who dun believe dat i will achieve it...for the impossible to happen there must be two factors...dreams which i had already n the determination to reach for the dreams...will get my determination n show everyone dat i am not weak!!
I appologize for my coldness towards u...but sometimes its realli very very hard to pretend dat i didnt see or hear something dat i dun wish to know...knowing bout others n wad dey do r not suppose to affect me but its always much easier said den done...when ur in my position den can anyone realli understand how its like...sometimes u realli make me feel very happy...but there r still the so many times dat i suffered for those lil happiness...im not complaining bout the sufferings...im just stating the reasons y there is a slight change recently...u might not fully or ever will understand it but its just something that i dun want to have to go through always...wished dat things were simpler...but life is never simple so guess i will still have to endure it den...sighs...
Realli need to find a person to train wif dat is around the same standard or slightly better than me...it realli helps if there is the competition between two person so that one will push himself even more than he normally does so that he will not lose out...no matter wad u say felix i still believe dat having another person to train wif me is realli gonna help...but the problem is there is no such person!!!willy n wei hao r very inconsistent training partners who have their own differant ways n level of determination to go through...sometimes if one of us slack end up draggin all down...must find one that is very determined so i can also change for the better...god send such a person to help me plz...
Chinese o lvl paper approaching very fast wif each days dat tick by...getting pressured n stressed again...shits...plus gettign back results which i know some r very unpeasant on monday...die liao...my dad say dat if there is any red marks on my report im screwed...dang i already know somehow dat there r gonna be some subjects that i totally screwed up...its too late now...sighs i guess i should make full use of the time now to get myself prepared...*gulpz*