Life is horrible at times...especially when comming home to a family dat is constantly quarrelling n arguing...dis morning staying at home is like a war zone...second sis had a fight/arguement wif my bro...grandmother vs my mum...dad is in a bad mood taking it out on us n giving us faces like we were the one who cause everything that is wrong to happen to him...eldest sis had something agaisnt me...everybody at home is now in a cranky mood...im no exception...when situation like dis occurs normally i will try to stay out as long as possible before comming home but now im getting scolded for going out...when i try to tune everything out by going to train i will get it from my mum n grandmother bout wasting my time,money,energy etc...y cant they understand dat building up my body through training is a good thing...i can get to keep myself fit...train up mental discipline...destress...n very importantly dun have to be at home to listen to all the stupid arguments n quarrels going on...when i go out to libary to study i got doubted by everyone in my family dat i actually studied outside...all of them thinks that i go out all da time just to have dun n ejnjoy myself...do they even know y i choose to study outside rather than staying at home??How will one be able to study in a house wif conditions like dis...
Stress is doubling wif each passing days drawing forward the comming of the prelims n chinese o lvl...tend to lose my temper easily this days...lack of rest is driving me up the wall...ahhh how i wish can just take a holiday from everything n come back to continue after a good rest but guess dis is kinda impossible at this timing so have to push on...at least softball is not giving me problems now...batting has at least regain a lil back n performance is doing better now...maybe after training a lil extra fittness helps =) we won tp jc on sat played two sets against them...both we won first set 12-2 second set was around 10-8...first time i played two games in one shot without resting...its qutie physically challenging though...after match went ot kfc to have lunch before going to gym straight after that...was feeling quite full n all so decided to walk from the kfc all da way to the national stadium where the gym is at...blistering heat nearly roast me alive man...met felix there n he say train chest so did the same sets he did other than mine was lighter n easier cause i have not gotten my form yet...somehow onli felt a lil aching onli not the sort that will get if train till extremely tired...must be cause i did not do enough i guess...after that went to do a lil legs thingy and am happy dat i can now reach the same as felix they all on the leg machine thingy...from my first time of 50kg to 80kg to finally 110kg...am going to push harder to do better...but need rest for like one week to give legs time to recover back or else its gonna be useless dats wad felix said...find dat nowadays my time spent in the gym is some of the most relax time for me dis days...went ot marine parade libary to study den went home tired out from the whole day...
Food intake dis days have increased for me...eating much more than i use to after i started training...protein needed to build up so more food have to be consume...famlily keeps complaining dat im eating too much...wad can i do to make them understand the need...if train without the food will also be equiviant to zero...but since they are against me training so there is very little i can do to make them understand...
Sighs life is filled wif so many problems like such i faced but nevertheless...i believe dat although there are always problems in life..there will also be a solution to the problems in life too...all i need to do is look harder for the soultions to my problems den...