The decision had been made...although it hurts me more than anyone will ever know i will follow it den...there is onli two options...i guess the one has already been chosen long ago...chasing ur dreams n cherishing hopes onli get u burnt in the end...will never ever make the same mistake ever again...learnt a lesson the hard way dat the more feelings u show easily the worse it is...physical pain is nothing compared to wad it feels like now...never had i felt like dis n i will make sure i never have to go through this again...did all i could but since there is nothin i can do now i guess the ending is inevitable...fate played a cruel joke on me dis time...fuck it...y even gave the glimmer of hope in the first place??It just hurt so much more...i wished i never knew anything at the starting den i wont even get my hopes up...to let them be smashed down like dis...i cant blame anyone for dis but then there always have to be somebody who is in the wrong so i guess the problem resulted from me...i just wished i knew wads the problem n can change it all...i guess its too late to say anything now...its over for me i guess..no matter how painful it is the fact remains...
Life will have to go on...i have no choice but to...living a meaningless life now wif nothin to live for..to look forward to...i guess dis is the begining for the future den...i will never be able to forget this for the whole of my life...its impossible to...but i can onli try to block n forget this painful experience den...to all those who still believes in fairy tales of happy ending let me tell u the truth: ITS ALL BULLSHIT!! i used to believe in dat once...but now after facing the truth den did i realise how wrong i was...since its not meant to be den i cant do anythin bout it...let time heal my wounds n erase as much as possible den...onli thing that i can live to do now is to study n gym....nothin matters anymore...i should be happy but im not...how can i be??
I made my mistake of showing my emotions n feelings hence cause me all dis...i guess thats y i can onli blame myself...take care of urself den...i wont be able to do so for u now...
My feelings for u cannot be shown,
But the pain i felt hurts to the bones...
To cherish a hope dat seem so slim,
That it almost seems like onli a dream...
Yet u brought my hopes up till so high,
Till it seems to be able to touch the sky...
But u let it drop till it hits the floor,
Smashing my hopes to pieces so small...
I drift between the two differant paths,
Till ur answer sets my heart apart...
Now the choice have been made,
Turning my dreams to dust n all just fade...