Ahhh darn today wasnt realli one of my best day sia...lessons were ok...during P.E played floorball n im happy to say that i scored one goal hahaha ^_^ making the score 5-2 but i believe thats the onli happy thing of the whole day...during recess wanted to go gym but the gym door got problem cannot open... T_T waa...last day before school close then like dat also cannot do one last training sia...guess like have to go home n use the weights thingy felix lend me ba...haiz....i went to eat one drumstick n drink two packet of cold milo n the next thing i know i had a super stomachache sia...i think its because i drank cold drinks right after excercising or something like dat...
Wa piangz...sit in the toilet for more than an hour from recess till almost the end of chinese lesson...ahhhh stomach was super excruciating painful sia...after comming out of the toilet felt faint n weak...didnt take my chinese test cause of that...was suppose to be going for the flag day thingy but after i paired up wif ming yi to do n left the school compound i felt even more sick...had a fever n a splitting headache...couldnt take it anymore then i pass him my stuffs then i went home to rest...god man i think i know how the feeling of fainting feels like...almost fainted on my way home...everything just went blury all of a sudden n the whole body like just shutdown like dat...had to cling on to the pillar for support to make it home...took the lift instead as i was unable to even walk straight so cant take the stairs...i went straight to bed then slept for like an hour plus...woke up still wif a lil headache but felt better...
phew cant afford to fall sick at this timeing...tml theres a match against anglican high ( i think its spelled this wad dun realli know ;p) first time we will be facing them...finally the north zone was over...the time for me to be able to play has finally come...coach say he will put all to play in the src tournament n he say that due to the dissapointing performance by those in the fifteen of the north zone yesterday when they lost to orchid park sec by i think a score of 14-4 n commin in third place for north zone which is bad cause the year before we was champion then last year second then now third...going downwards liao....anyway...coach say that me,jun zhi n jason r comfirmed in the top fifteen for the nationals i think...or something like dat yay!!but if i blew my chance during the src tournament i have a feeling he will take back his words...ahhh pressure on me to perform has never been higher....my last year playing softball for maris stella...have to do it in a bang...dun want to waste my years in the team if i cant play...had to give my best shot in it although after close to like a year of not playing in competition im getting a lil rusty liao...ahhh have to now force myself to be at my peak performance as i also want to try to make it into combine school team...the onli way is to play well n be selected but if i messed up n is not being to be put to play then....sighs....pray that i dun make dumb mistake ba...amanda say she wanna go watch the match cause she never see before a softball match but i dun think she will want to go tml as the match is quite late at 4 plus...allester n randall also say they wanna go watch match but is next week matches...
hmmm didnt realli slept well last nite...thinking n thinking bout things...sometimes i feel insecure n dunno wad to do as it will seem like choosing which way is still wrong...maybe im thinking too much n should just focus on wads at hand...maybe by not planning n all there might be bliss in the ignorance...sometimes i feel that the higher hopes i place i always ended up being disappointed even more...i have went through lots of disappointments in my relatively short life...but had managed to overcome them...hope that dis time it will be the same for me if im realli being made to be dissapointed again...wad i can do now is onli hope n pray for the ending to be wad i wish for...used to believe in such things as a happy ending...dunno if i still do now...will give it one more shot in believing in a happy ending then...if the result is not then i guesss there realli aint such things as a happy ending but i will be keeping my fingers cross n praying there is...i have been asked wad love is...wad realli is love then??my defination of loving one person might differ but i think that the main point of love is still the same and its realli hard to describe it...its more of a feeling type thing...u have to trust ur gut instincts on it...when the time comes u will know ur in love....relationships that r built up on love has to be a two sided love...it will never work out if its one sided...if its realli a one sided than i would consider it more of a infatuartion than love...heard advice from many ppl bout love...such as its easy to be loved than to love somebody especially if u cant show ur love for the person due to certain cirumstances...or that love is not something that can be build up over one day...loving a person may be filled wif obstacles but i believe that as long as the obstacles can be overcome true love can be found...some ppl say that im stupid for making a choice so fast...or that y make myself wait for a love that might change due to time but i disagree....its worth to do anything for the one u love even if the response u get might not be the response u might be looking for...time shall be the test of my love then...if it has to be this way so shall it be then...even if at the end i might face rejection at least the problem doesnt lie in me for not being devoted to love...to the person whom i love although i dun think ur ready for it...i will show that im serious bout u n that ur the one person for me n no other ppl will take the place...u might have changed feelings for me by then but i believe that by trying it out it will be fair to both sides...so i guess i will be waiting for the result at the end of this year then...but life has already been good to me by letting me meet n know someone like u...i wont hold it against u or anyone i promise if things dun work out the way planned...
To the world u might be just one person....
But to me ur the world....