Sighs...haven been blogging for a while already close to two weeks not because i dont want to or wad is just that some things happening in my life is a lil personal at that period of time so it wasnt realli easy for me to open up to all...but i guess i have to move on wif life i have no choice but to so here i am then...
Rough summary of happenings since last time i blogg: Chinese new year came n left me broke after losing in gambling..owe sis 50 gold though dunno how im gonna find the gold sia..but will go dig the gold out somehow...realised that i owed my aunty 30 gold also alamak cause she lent it to me some time back then i cleanly forgotten bout it...craped..had many tests one after another at an average of one test per day...school sux...teachers are not helping in anyway since homework just keep pileing...dad lost his temper over some trival thingy n made life terrible for my whole family...got caught in a traffic jam due to a funeral procession blocking up the road...coach wanted to sack me on the spot for skipping too many training ( but i realli didnt realised that i skipped three trainings in a row !_! ) luckily or unluckily dunno Mr Quale asked him to gimme chance n i was told that if i miss any more training just once even for any reason i will be kicked out which means my cca points will all be gone since sec 1 till now...so i wasnt surprised that i wasnt in the top fifteen selected for north zone but i had already hack care all this sort of stupid stuffs...guess like this part of my life has already been nothing to me liao..cant realli be bothered...injured my ankle while playing basketball damn unlucky was just about to REJECT J.K then i landed on his feet n my whole ankle gave way n now its still swollen...could barely walk that nite of injury but luckily its getting better although it still hurts at times though n0w...lost my tamper yesterday n although i regreted my actions wad done has already been done when i beat teck wei in a fit of anger cause he throw the chicken wing bone thingy at me by accident...my temper is getting very short lived these days n guess like i will have to do something bout it...then i had to face wif other problems some mine some others that i dun think i will want to say although some ppl might already know them...my main problem was my focus n although it hurts the most i kinda settle it for now...no wonder the saying that when it comes to love sacrifces have to be made even though it hurts u more than anything else...
I have never been through this sorts of unluckiness n emotions before but although it may be hard for me n all still my life is still wad i got n guess like all this are just lessons of life that have to go through even if i dun like it i have to accept things as it is...to those who noticed the change in me the past few days n showed their concern thank u for that but i have decieded to look at things in a differant angle n go back to try n enjoy wad little thats left of my life that is still there...time for me to go back to being my old self instead of brooding over things...cause at the end of the day when the blame comes...think about it realli clearly n everything that went wrong is ur fault whether u want to acknowledge it a not so by accepting the blame n responsibilites i guess that wad happened to me was caused due to myself in one way or another so im not gonna go around blameing anyong...life is filled mainly wif sorrow n unhappiness but if one can look at things at a differant way more positive instead of negatively those that are around will also be affected positively n feel happiness instead...